shimassz
Well-known member
- Location
- England
So as the title says... Im leaving altis, and I dont know when I will be back. The reason is that realtionship is going down... I love my gf very much, but she does not know if she feels anything to me. We were living together for 2 years and now she moved out to her uncle. Its in the same town but I dont see her as much... That brakes me apart... All the nights spent crying in the pillow... All thouts, prays and hopes that everything will be ok are braking apart aswell... The reason is that for about a year I was dead inside. I dont know what happened to me but I was dead. I wasnt going anywhere... I wasnt showing her my love and feelings as much as I had to. And I think that pushed her away... And I think now its to late fix anything. I hate myself and i dont know If I will ever forgive myself. I still hope that some time spent apart will triger something in her and she will understand that theres still something left... But even when we meet up and go for a coffee or something she says that she doesnt feel anything. And that just crushes me... I love her with all my heart, but I cant bring her back... I dream late at night that it would be nice If I would wake up and all this would be just a bad dream. That I could turn and see her in my bed, hug her, kiss her and tell her how much I love her... But its not happening... Sorry if this leaving message sounds bad to you all. But I cant care about anything else than her at the momment. It feels like she is all my life, and if she will go out of my life, my life will go out with her. I really hope that everything will be good again... But it doesnt seem like it will ever gonna happen... Just my heart still cant understand it, and she still hopes...
I hope I will see you all again one day...
Good bye
I hope I will see you all again one day...
Good bye