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In-game Name: Emily Akinson
Server: GTA RP
Steam ID: 778284818999672852
Ban ID: (cant see it)
Reason given for your ban: C1.6 Community Ban
In your own words, please type why you think you were banned.: I was 1.6 banned (C1.6) Community Ban - The Staff Team may remove any member from the servers and community at any time if they are considered disruptive to the community or we have a valid reason to believe they are here to cause issues. - Permanent Ban, for racist comments I made in a private discord server.
Why should we unban you ?: I've not come to my appeal with excuses, if i could take those words back i would but i did send those messages and i'll take full responsibility for that. I took the year I was banned and used it to reflect on my actions. I made jokes out of discriminatory words, without thinking about how it would affect those around me. It was disgusting behavior and I know it. The words I used are discriminatory, they are hurtful, and foul to use. I thought my comments were funny but I've since seen how insensitive it was, and how ignorant I was to not only make those comments but using those words. I could tell you it was because of Vagos that I started speaking that way, as I had never done so before, however there were others in the gang who were surrounded by it as well, and chose to not do as I did. I chose to say what I said, I don't want it to be placed upon Vagos’ responsibility for the actions I took and the words I spoke. There's no excuse, and there's no other blame that could be placed that could possibly be reason enough for me to get away with saying what I said. And there shouldn’t be. I should have never said them.
To anyone I affected with my words, I am deeply sorry for causing any distress through those messages. I never wanted to hurt anyone in general, let alone those that I cared about around me. I was thoughtless and I couldn't imagine the betrayal that you must have felt seeing someone you had become friends with and cared about speak like that. I can promise you I have learned from my actions and from listening and really seeing the impact of my words. I hope you will give me the chance to prove to you that it won't happen again.
After I was banned, I messaged a staff member, Stavik, curious as to why I received a ban. Stavik showed me the screenshot of a statement with a slur I made, and informed me I was no longer allowed on the server or in the community. I do not know what more evidence you have, regardless, I will admit I said more than what could be seen in the screenshot Stavik sent. Instead of accepting his response I got angry and tried to defend myself saying that I shouldn’t be banned because it was a private discord. However, that’s not an excuse, and I shouldn’t have thought it was. Stavik said it didn’t matter and it was worse I said it in private. I then made comments out of anger in an attack at Stavik. It was immature and unacceptable. So, I'd like to publicly apologize to Stavik for the things I had said and for the way I had presented myself. Anger shouldn’t result in the response I gave.
After I got banned there was a small period of time that I remained in the Vagos discord. Whilst I was in it everyone spent time trying to figure out who reported to staff, and investigating things, everyone being questioned, everyone having to show in some way that they were not involved in telling staff. Eventually I left the server. Shortly after leaving the server I was asked by Bobby to provide pictures of others in the RPUK server for a video, in which I denied the request. I wanted no involvement in something so awful, shortly thereafter the video was released. When I saw the video, it was far worse than I was expecting it to be. I wish I had put more effort into trying to stop the video from being made, but I doubt that anyone would have listened to me.
I spent some time trying out other RP servers, however none of them had the experience and the people that RPUK has. I have spent the last year still very involved with people from RPUK. Those being the former AE people who are now involved with Cypress, among others who have joined along the way. I've kept up with updates and watched Archies stream seeing the changes that are being made to the server which look very detailed and in depth. There have been a vast amount of changes that I hope I'll be able to experience, I can already imagine the possible story lines and roleplay scenarios I could have thanks to these changes. The RP that could come of spending a year+ in prison, and coming out a completely changed person. The server changes I've seen enhance the RP as it will certainly help back up the long term time in prison and coming out to a whole new world as would happen irl. Going forward should i have the privilege to be unbanned i do have plans to stay out of gangs, and focusing on my characters storyline and possibly being a part of the group Cypress, as i've seen what they are doing and with Cypress being my friends in game and out of game, i'd like to be a part of that.
I of course am writing this in hopes that I may receive a second chance to prove to the community and myself that I have learned through my actions and this ban. Regardless of the outcome I feel as though stepping forward and admitting what I did wrong is the right thing to do. I know you have not been around me the last year to see the changes I've made to myself, but I believe there are many that could attest to how I worked on myself with understanding what I did, stopping the language I was using, and then furthermore speaking against anyone who joked in said way. It was not an immediate thing, I will admit, as at first I didn't think I had done anything wrong, however once I cut ties with the Vagos group, I had a major wake up call. I could see that it is not acceptable for those around me to be making such comments and I realized that those words shouldn't have been thrown around, especially so nonchalantly. Those around me have seen the change I have made, and I have accepted what I did and I know that my actions won't be forgotten. I did not want to make this appeal until I had come to terms with what I did and until I felt that I could be my best self within the server and the community. I spent 8 months on the server enjoying rp with my friends, creating storylines, the gameplay of the server and the people involved in it. I enjoy the stories, the fun, and the hard work that goes into making the server as great as it is. I really would greatly appreciate the chance to be able to prove myself different. If I am accepted back, I want to show you that the language I used will not be used again. I understand that it is not acceptable in any conversation or any manner. I will follow all server rules, and I will continue to do my best to provide quality roleplay, and keep myself on a good track, moving forward as a new person. If my appeal is denied, I hope that it can still serve as an apology to the community and anyone that was affected by my words or anything that was said by the people in that discord.
Please confirm that you have read the unban appeal process and rules: Yes
In-game Name: Emily Akinson
Server: GTA RP
Steam ID: 778284818999672852
Ban ID: (cant see it)
Reason given for your ban: C1.6 Community Ban
In your own words, please type why you think you were banned.: I was 1.6 banned (C1.6) Community Ban - The Staff Team may remove any member from the servers and community at any time if they are considered disruptive to the community or we have a valid reason to believe they are here to cause issues. - Permanent Ban, for racist comments I made in a private discord server.
Why should we unban you ?: I've not come to my appeal with excuses, if i could take those words back i would but i did send those messages and i'll take full responsibility for that. I took the year I was banned and used it to reflect on my actions. I made jokes out of discriminatory words, without thinking about how it would affect those around me. It was disgusting behavior and I know it. The words I used are discriminatory, they are hurtful, and foul to use. I thought my comments were funny but I've since seen how insensitive it was, and how ignorant I was to not only make those comments but using those words. I could tell you it was because of Vagos that I started speaking that way, as I had never done so before, however there were others in the gang who were surrounded by it as well, and chose to not do as I did. I chose to say what I said, I don't want it to be placed upon Vagos’ responsibility for the actions I took and the words I spoke. There's no excuse, and there's no other blame that could be placed that could possibly be reason enough for me to get away with saying what I said. And there shouldn’t be. I should have never said them.
To anyone I affected with my words, I am deeply sorry for causing any distress through those messages. I never wanted to hurt anyone in general, let alone those that I cared about around me. I was thoughtless and I couldn't imagine the betrayal that you must have felt seeing someone you had become friends with and cared about speak like that. I can promise you I have learned from my actions and from listening and really seeing the impact of my words. I hope you will give me the chance to prove to you that it won't happen again.
After I was banned, I messaged a staff member, Stavik, curious as to why I received a ban. Stavik showed me the screenshot of a statement with a slur I made, and informed me I was no longer allowed on the server or in the community. I do not know what more evidence you have, regardless, I will admit I said more than what could be seen in the screenshot Stavik sent. Instead of accepting his response I got angry and tried to defend myself saying that I shouldn’t be banned because it was a private discord. However, that’s not an excuse, and I shouldn’t have thought it was. Stavik said it didn’t matter and it was worse I said it in private. I then made comments out of anger in an attack at Stavik. It was immature and unacceptable. So, I'd like to publicly apologize to Stavik for the things I had said and for the way I had presented myself. Anger shouldn’t result in the response I gave.
After I got banned there was a small period of time that I remained in the Vagos discord. Whilst I was in it everyone spent time trying to figure out who reported to staff, and investigating things, everyone being questioned, everyone having to show in some way that they were not involved in telling staff. Eventually I left the server. Shortly after leaving the server I was asked by Bobby to provide pictures of others in the RPUK server for a video, in which I denied the request. I wanted no involvement in something so awful, shortly thereafter the video was released. When I saw the video, it was far worse than I was expecting it to be. I wish I had put more effort into trying to stop the video from being made, but I doubt that anyone would have listened to me.
I spent some time trying out other RP servers, however none of them had the experience and the people that RPUK has. I have spent the last year still very involved with people from RPUK. Those being the former AE people who are now involved with Cypress, among others who have joined along the way. I've kept up with updates and watched Archies stream seeing the changes that are being made to the server which look very detailed and in depth. There have been a vast amount of changes that I hope I'll be able to experience, I can already imagine the possible story lines and roleplay scenarios I could have thanks to these changes. The RP that could come of spending a year+ in prison, and coming out a completely changed person. The server changes I've seen enhance the RP as it will certainly help back up the long term time in prison and coming out to a whole new world as would happen irl. Going forward should i have the privilege to be unbanned i do have plans to stay out of gangs, and focusing on my characters storyline and possibly being a part of the group Cypress, as i've seen what they are doing and with Cypress being my friends in game and out of game, i'd like to be a part of that.
I of course am writing this in hopes that I may receive a second chance to prove to the community and myself that I have learned through my actions and this ban. Regardless of the outcome I feel as though stepping forward and admitting what I did wrong is the right thing to do. I know you have not been around me the last year to see the changes I've made to myself, but I believe there are many that could attest to how I worked on myself with understanding what I did, stopping the language I was using, and then furthermore speaking against anyone who joked in said way. It was not an immediate thing, I will admit, as at first I didn't think I had done anything wrong, however once I cut ties with the Vagos group, I had a major wake up call. I could see that it is not acceptable for those around me to be making such comments and I realized that those words shouldn't have been thrown around, especially so nonchalantly. Those around me have seen the change I have made, and I have accepted what I did and I know that my actions won't be forgotten. I did not want to make this appeal until I had come to terms with what I did and until I felt that I could be my best self within the server and the community. I spent 8 months on the server enjoying rp with my friends, creating storylines, the gameplay of the server and the people involved in it. I enjoy the stories, the fun, and the hard work that goes into making the server as great as it is. I really would greatly appreciate the chance to be able to prove myself different. If I am accepted back, I want to show you that the language I used will not be used again. I understand that it is not acceptable in any conversation or any manner. I will follow all server rules, and I will continue to do my best to provide quality roleplay, and keep myself on a good track, moving forward as a new person. If my appeal is denied, I hope that it can still serve as an apology to the community and anyone that was affected by my words or anything that was said by the people in that discord.
Please confirm that you have read the unban appeal process and rules: Yes
