Peppa Pig
Well-known member
- Location
- Japan
I found it kind of fitting that as I had come here on the forums for the first time in months on Thursday evening that I find out that the Altis server had died...I had come by with the firm intentions of writing a message for all that were close to me here in the community to help them understand why I had suddenly dipped mid April with no news or reason which knowing me was not normal because I always forewarned in the past to only give sign of life today, because to be honest Altis for me since 2018 was a home away from and a place that I received a lot of support during some very ruff times after my work accident and all the operations too my neck and that patch when I had lost all sensation in my legs for months in hospital bed on the laptop. TS was a life saver back them and so was the server 
I had to take some time to digest and think about what Altis being gone meant and felt to me so I took a few more days before writing today's message to the community. I loved you then and I still love you now but a lot has changed since April. Altis being gone just makes it sting a tad more lets say.
For a lot of you whom know me know that my life has always revolved around my children and no one or nothing could have ever deterred me from that....When we dipped last fall to Japan all was good but I had to comeback to Canada before the holidays to get unfinished business sorted with the sale of my home and possessions such as cars and what not...My return was delayed due to Covid restrictions and immigration and visa complexities that finally when all was settled and I could travel again to Japan to rejoin them it was the end of April on the 29th...I did go back........but it was too late.....My wife and kids all died on April 21st in a very bad car crash that involved some pretty fucked up circumstances in the end but no matter what it doesn't change anything for me because they are still gone...They emotions I felt the moment when I received the phone call announcing the deaths and what transpired I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy in life no matter how bad the fuck up....I smashed my phone at the end of the call and a lot of other things in my home and then the thoughts of suicide set in and fortunately for me people close to me here were around to support me and saw the signs and got me the help I needed to take care of my mental health so that I wouldn't take my own life with the ones already lost and to begin to find a way to cope with all of what was my reality in life and its a hard road to climb but one day at a time and I truly believe that I can make it there but only time will tell tho you can trust that I wont give up in the end...It wouldn't make any sense for it to end that way for me...Ive always been a * It is what it is type of guy * but this is hard as fuck to swallow but every day that I'm still alive I consider that Ive made it in life still and in the end well its like what you always did as a Pleb....You re-geared and you went again !!!!!!!!! It is what I'm slowly doing now one day at a time...
To all of the Plebs, Poseidon, NHS, Rebels and Staff...Thanks for everything on the Island...Best gaming experience of my life hands down and that is saying a lot for someone whom is 48 years old !!! LOL
Although I'm not leaving the community per say even though Ive written this post in the Departures section and I'm sorry for having dipped on you in April and now you know why but I'm still dipping for bit and will not be active here at all for quite some time to come but will stay in touch. I hope you understand.
To my close mates here...I will be dropping you each a word soon via discord be assured.
Live every day like its your last because you never know when God is gonna ring you up to say hi.....
Much Love...Peppa xxx
I had to take some time to digest and think about what Altis being gone meant and felt to me so I took a few more days before writing today's message to the community. I loved you then and I still love you now but a lot has changed since April. Altis being gone just makes it sting a tad more lets say.For a lot of you whom know me know that my life has always revolved around my children and no one or nothing could have ever deterred me from that....When we dipped last fall to Japan all was good but I had to comeback to Canada before the holidays to get unfinished business sorted with the sale of my home and possessions such as cars and what not...My return was delayed due to Covid restrictions and immigration and visa complexities that finally when all was settled and I could travel again to Japan to rejoin them it was the end of April on the 29th...I did go back........but it was too late.....My wife and kids all died on April 21st in a very bad car crash that involved some pretty fucked up circumstances in the end but no matter what it doesn't change anything for me because they are still gone...They emotions I felt the moment when I received the phone call announcing the deaths and what transpired I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy in life no matter how bad the fuck up....I smashed my phone at the end of the call and a lot of other things in my home and then the thoughts of suicide set in and fortunately for me people close to me here were around to support me and saw the signs and got me the help I needed to take care of my mental health so that I wouldn't take my own life with the ones already lost and to begin to find a way to cope with all of what was my reality in life and its a hard road to climb but one day at a time and I truly believe that I can make it there but only time will tell tho you can trust that I wont give up in the end...It wouldn't make any sense for it to end that way for me...Ive always been a * It is what it is type of guy * but this is hard as fuck to swallow but every day that I'm still alive I consider that Ive made it in life still and in the end well its like what you always did as a Pleb....You re-geared and you went again !!!!!!!!! It is what I'm slowly doing now one day at a time...
To all of the Plebs, Poseidon, NHS, Rebels and Staff...Thanks for everything on the Island...Best gaming experience of my life hands down and that is saying a lot for someone whom is 48 years old !!! LOL
Although I'm not leaving the community per say even though Ive written this post in the Departures section and I'm sorry for having dipped on you in April and now you know why but I'm still dipping for bit and will not be active here at all for quite some time to come but will stay in touch. I hope you understand.
To my close mates here...I will be dropping you each a word soon via discord be assured.
Live every day like its your last because you never know when God is gonna ring you up to say hi.....
Much Love...Peppa xxx
I can't even begin imagine how you must have felt / be feeling. 
