Server: Community Banned
Ban Reason: C1.6
Why do you think you were banned: I was banned on May 7th 2023 because of comments I made towards 2 members of the staff team (Stavik and Liam) whilst in a ticket with them. I lost my temper when I felt I had been treated unfairly in a baiting report that had been put up on me and as a result I ended up laughing at and calling Stavik and Liam "freaks" as well as telling them to "Fuck off". The ticket was initially made because I was banned for baiting and I felt it wasn't deserved, I was then told in the ticket that I would be getting a permanent ban due to a comment in groups where I jokingly said "I'll do it again and again until I'm permad". Shortly after being told I would be getting a permanent ban because of my groups comment was then when I insulted both Liam and Stavik.
Why should we unban you: I understand there's no going back on what I said and that what's done is done. I also understand that the staff team don't want me back after my behaviour and I don't blame you all. I've been banned from the community for 18 months and with this time I have been able to reflect. I know you've heard this many times before but I genuinely have changed and I would like at least the opportunity to show you this. I deeply regret when I said in groups that I would "do it again and again until im permad". It wasn't a serious comment and was intended to be sarcastic but came across as cocky and serious. It was a childish remark and I don't expect staff to react to it any other way. I would never have actually gone and repeated my rule break, at the time I thought I was being funny however I have realised now why it got me in this position.
I've taken a break from gaming and have been focusing on the more important thing in my life. I've been away abroad for a couple months and don't even have FiveM/GTA installed on my computer as I type this appeal up. Honestly it's been refreshing and an eye opener for me and has made me realise how childish I was on the day I got a 1.6. I'm ashamed of myself and so I should be. RPUK is a great community with a hard working staff team and I took it for granted at the time and thought I could get away with throwing comments left and right at the staff. I should never have needed a break to know this but sometimes frustration gets the best of people and they say and do things that was never their true intention. I just wish I had taken this very needed step back on the day I made those comments, things would have turned out differently. I know I said in the discord ticket that I wouldn't be appealing my ban along with telling staff to go F themselves, however that was another one of the many frustrated comments I made on that day that had no serious intent behind it. I hope it doesn't get held against me forever potentially stopping me from ever being able to enjoy the server again. I understand my childish behaviour has led me to where I am, and that I had pretty much asked for all of this to happen when I said all those things, However deep down none of this is what I wanted and I would do anything to take it back.
I would also like to address one of the reasons that I was denied in previous appeals. Bowen stated that I posted racist memes in discord. I'll be completely honest, I have posted a few controversial gifs that could be considered to be racist, however this has all been in private with people who I know 100% can understand the black comedy that I like to partake in. As bowen said, they are memes and that is all, there is no real intent for racism. I could sit here and list off multiple stand up personalities who make all sorts of controversial and 'racist' jokes and comments, but at the end of the day it is all about intent. And my intentions were purely for a bit of dark humour and that is all. I have never brought my dark humour in game, nor in RPUK discord, nor in the groups discord. If anyone ever had any issue with me and my jokes and came to me about it then I would have 100% stopped. However I fell out with a particular member in the Azteca discord where I posted these controversial memes and he ended up screenshotting things and posting it around trying to claim that I am a something I'm not, and taking things out of context in order to get me banned. After seeing where this dark humour has got me though I have realised that there is a time and a place for certain jokes and memes and that it doesn't have a place in RPUK/related discords.
With it now coming up to the Christmas holidays and the new year, it would be nice to be allowed back into the community. It's been 18 months since I lost my temper in that ticket, and admittedly It's been a long boring period, I have never held a ban longer than 1 month on RPUK so it's been very dull and definitely an eye opener for me. As I'm sure you can imagine it's not a great feeling when you're sat with friends that are enjoying themselves who are able to play the server and then being the odd one out who has to sit and watch it all. Obviously though this is all through my own doing, But after 18 months of knowing how this feels it's safe to say I've definitely learned my lesson.
I would like to end off this appeal with a genuine apology to both Stavik and Liam and anyone else who was directly involved or witnessed the ticket. I was, and still am embarrassed with the way I acted. I turned what was meant to be a 7 day ban into a permanent one due to my childlike behaviour and outburst of emotions and as much as I would like to go back and change my actions, Sadly I cannot. You both spend your free time trying to make the community a better place and shouldn't have to put up with people like myself making rude remarks, it is unfair and selfish. Without the staff teams hard work, the server wouldn't be where it is today and I shouldn't have taken it for granted. Hopefully you can understand and see my point of view in all of this, I'm nothing like I made myself out to be and I hope you acknowledge this. I truly am sorry though.
Thanks.
Please confirm that you have read the unban appeal process and rules: Yes