Un-ban Appeal - AHappyTeddyBearX - 14/01/18 (Unbanned)

[AHappyTeddyBearX]

In-game Name
djbos

Steam ID
76561198264427316

The date of your ban.
14/01/18

Member of the team that banned you.
DELETER

Reason given for your ban.
Combat Log

The Server you initially were banned on.
Server 1

In your own words, please type why you think you were banned.
I was banned because I disconnected from the server when being in an active gun fight which goes against the server rules. Which is very stupid and this is why I have got banned.

Why should we unban you ?
I think you should unban me as I have learned my lesson to not do stupid things such as that, that goes against the server rules to which I could of just waited for server restart which was which was in a few minutes. It was a very stupid mistake for combat logging and I try not to get my panic disorder, anxiety the best of me when in a gun fight and I'll just let myself die, run away or just hide somewhere. I know using my illness isn't an excuse but being banned from the server I feel very lost now and not really sure what else to play as there isn't any other servers that are as good as this one. I spent loads of hours on this server and every time I get home from work I get on this server and everyone on the server are friendly and enjoyable to talk to.

- Ben

Please confirm this unban request is for you.
Yes

I have read and understand the unban appeal process
Yes

Please confirm you understand there is no timeframe for your appeal.
Yes

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Yes

 

[Aiden]

You tell me you have a condition which affects how you play then game, then explain your usual coping mechanism. So why on this occasion did you break rules that you seem to be fully aware of?

 

[AHappyTeddyBearX]

I am not using my condition as a excuse just to make that clear. I was fully aware but sometimes I don't have control over what I am doing. My condition is getting a lot better over the years. I go to physiotherapy every week and the doctor will sometimes give me tablets that will reduce it, but I try not to be on them as it effects my mood swings. When I get into a situation such as a gun fight, my heart rate jumps to 170bpm and go into a panic and my breathing becomes a lot heavier and my mind is telling me to quit/Combat logging  to reduce the heart rate. But it has been getting better as my breathing technique is getting better and have been to stay calm in most situations besides from this. You can see on my file that I was warmed for RDM when I was selling Blood Diamonds by an Admin but I am unable to remember this name, I remember him having a deep voice. Thats when I panicked and shot 1 police officer. I have been in situations like this before such as a gunfight have been able to keep completely calm. I was unlucky at this point of time and broke the server rule.

The way I try to cope with my condition is through certain breathing techniques. I listen to calm or joyful music as this massively helps it, I listen to music such as Jazz, Blues, Classical and piano music. I love to listen to Frank Sinatra, Muddy Waters, The Blues Band, Ray Charles and I would listen to MrSuicideSheep on YouTube. I would listen to this in the background as I play games and this helps me to keep calm and keep my mind off panicking if that makes sense. I would try to take relaxed and just lower my body in a way which will help me not to panic. Everyday I practice mindfulness meditation and other meditation. I also started to run 2 years ago and have been entering into marathons, half marathons, 10k's, 5k's etc...This has also help me to cope as I also practice mindfulness at the same time that I am running. I run every 2 days doing 10k's each time. I am always trying to think positive and never try to rage. There was at point where I shouted "Thats RDM!" at TBB clan when they were chasing me but we have resolved this in Team speak. But that was the only time that I went out of character and shouted that out. I am normally a very calm and peaceful person.

I hope this helps you understand with how I cope with my panic attacks. There are many other ways that I cope with it but they are very minor and works about 50/50 of the time .

- Ben 

 

[Samatlewis]

I understand you have a condition, however it is clear that on this occasion your coping mechanism's didn't work.. What worries me is if you were to be unbanned, the likely hood of another "lapse" so to speak in your ability to cope with events in-game may occur again and we will end up in the same situation.

It's clear you now understand that this is not acceptable, and I understand you're clearly in a difficult position however as staff we have to assess the likelihood of someone re-offending, thus affecting other player's gameplay.

My question to you is; how can we place the trust necessary in you to ensure you can follow the rules?

 

[AHappyTeddyBearX]

In order for you and the staff team to have trust I must go and rethink on what helps me cope and what doesn't. I will focus more on the things that actually do help me cope. My progress with coping with certain situations and have been more calm and controlled throughout the past few months. The help I am getting is working and it maybe not fast but I can ensure you and the staff team that it is working. I have and will be focusing on the things that do help me to cope such as listening to music, meditation and breathing. I would never break the server rules on purpose. I do try to stay as calm as possible and have been for a while, it is getting better but again it's not as quick as any of us would like.

You and the staff team face a hard decision. I can not promise that I wont break the server rules nor am I saying I will on purpose. As if I was to break a server rule then I have broke a promise and also lied to you and the staff team. But I will try my absolute to try to obey the server rules. Not that it is hard to obey the rules as most of it is common sense. My "lapses" as you call it are rare and don't happen much. I might get 1 or 2 lapses a month and that can be out in the real life such as when I am in a shop etc. If you look at the dates when I have been warned for RDM and when I got banned for combat logging, you can see that they are spaced apart by quite a bit - by a few weeks or a month. I can't remember for certain. I can ensure you that I barley get lapses.

If I was to break another server rule and didn't get banned for it/no one knew that I did then I will turn myself in and message one of the staff team or speak to one of the admins on TeamSpeak and I'll admit to what I have done. I know I am not saying what you and the staff team would like to hear such as "I promise I wont break another server rule" etc..but I can ensure you I will try my best and if I were to have another lapse I'll let myself be killed if I am in a shooting or put my hands up if I got caught by the cops doing illgeal things. 

I know in what I said doesn't help you and the staff team to make it easy to decide. All I can do is wait and hope for the best as there isn't much I can do and there is certainly no point in lying as this will land me in further trouble and make you and the staff team not have trust in me. My goal with you and the staff team is to gain trust in me and not the other way round.

My goal for on this server is to have fun with the people and make friends on it and do some amazing role-play. I know I have ruined role-play on 2 occasions and I am greatly sorry to those people who I have ruined their fun and experience on this server.

Thank you for taking your time to read this and looking forward to getting back into the server.

- Ben

 

[Samatlewis]

Hmm i've spent some time thinking about this one.. 

I think it's worth throwing you another chance as I can see that you don't have malicious intent, however I would advise you proceed carefully and thoughtful of how actions have consequences.

Unbanned.