Just more than a introduction..

[Fabrizio R R H]

-This was copied from another thread i was writing-

After a long edit, and waiting time i pronounce you, "just more than an introduction"

So very well i dont know where to start, because this is a telling about who i am as a person, and who i have been as a part of the community.

My name is Dennis, i am 20 years old and i come from Denmark, i am raised in a amazing family, with alot of trouble, i have a sick sister, and i have an alcoholic dad, i do not have any of thoose issues, but i am suffering from uncontrolled anger problem. and the reason i write this now, is because yesterday (01-02-2015) i did a thing that should never have happened.

You might know me as KoA/LoA Slacky, SPC Fabrizio Rizzo Rodrigues Hernandez, LT. Foxtail and me now, Bill Wisconsin.

What happened was that when i was a SPC back in days, i made a good friend, i did enjoy every ride with him, and everything he did, his name was by then PCSO Tickle.

I highly regret what happened last night, and the yelling and screaming when we discussed just the most stupid thing, and i do highly apoligize if you felt that you were not welcome.

This is not the first time i go furious over the smallest stuff, and i will get closer in on this.

First of all i would like to say thank you to this amazing community, but i think it might be on time for me to leave aswell, the server have changed alot, but the community have changed even more, on a negative way in my eyes, people threatening about reporting by the smallest mistake, if you are cop or not, people not willing to provide the RP that keeps the server alive, and yes i know this comes from a "LoA scum" as we are called inside the police, and i find that amazing that some still are butthurt about something almost 5-6 months ago. We are supposed to be an adult community, i just dont see how this can be an adult and mature way to deal with stuff. but that is just my opinion.

I have had alot of good and bad experiences on the server, and i will mention the top highligths from my days.

Good ones:

First of all i do not know if you will ever see this mitchell, you were the reason i decided to become a police officer, with your amazing humor, and rp, you did always make my day better, even when i was down in the pit.

Then i would say thank you to Wilco, i clearly remember the episode when me and Sitdown killed a person, and he became so furious that he on someway, got access to Sitdown's real name, and started type text massages to him about if he liked to kill random people, and finishing the sentence with his real name, and then when he stopped he turned to do the exact same to me, when we saw him log off, we thought it was all good, but it was not. the person connected agian, with my sick sisters full name, her first name, her last name, my last name. We had no clue how it was done, and we went to you straight away wilco, and it took you less than 2 minutes to respond to the situation after we told what was going on, he was banned straight away, and you tracked him down due to a donation he did back in days, and it turned out it was a person from the UK, but how he got access to our names and personel details i still think about thoose days. I wish to thank you for what you are doing for the community wilco, i know it is tough after what i have seen with names i do not want to mention, but you are doing it good.

Then i want to say thank you to =BAD= if anyone remembers thoose guys, i had alot of fun with you, and i still have alot of contact to a few members, and you will not be forgotten, you made the server a much better place to be.

Another good time was when i got accepted to join the police back when the PAT was active, it was sad when we was told it was going to be disbanded, and that caused me to leave the police force.

I then reapplied to join the police now known as Fabrizio Rizzo Rodrigues Hernandez, and all the people i made laugh with that name, and when i pronounced my full name to people was amazing, thier reactions, their questions about if i could repeat my name, priceless (try say it fast yourself with the police rank aswell "Senior Police Constable Fabrizio Rizzo Rodrigues Hernandez") But yet agian i left the force, knowing the fact i could not get back.

So after the new year, we all got the message where we were told the database for the police applications was removed, so i decided to give it a shot and here i am today, in the RTU as PC Bill Wisconsin, it's amazing and i love being here, but there is always a but.

Bad Things:

As said there is always a but, and the but here is that the server have went to a, let me go or get shot server, hobos running up to you saying, drop your gear or you will get shot, here is just a question for you rebels out there, how should we consider even to drop anything with a person running around in hobo gear tells you to do it, sometimes it feel that you have never been in kavala.

Another bad memory, there will always stick was back in the old days when the LoA was active, we were known for being ruthless killers, stretching the rules to the edge, and general offensive behavior. which all resulted in a war declaration with another gang, which i do not remember the name of.

Then we had a episode where we were killed at the bank job, except one person in a ifrit, and he was being pursuit all the way to the old VIP Island, where there was only one way over, we saw the ifrit get rammed over and over by police vehicles, which were not allowed at that point, but we refused to do anything except looking, then we bought some weapons, and got restrained straight away for being in possesion of illegal weapons on the VIP island, you might remember it Maratek, Cool went furious and pulled out an ifrit to bump back to the police vehicles harrasing the ifrit still being chased, as soon it was spawned, it was scrapped in less than 6 seconds, this is very my anger problem stroke me, i told the officer who was scrapping it, that if he did it i would shoot him regardless of the rules inside VIP/Green zone or not, he scrapped it, and i shot him, then i was brought down aswell. we had long conversation about what was done  by every single officer, and rebel, but at that moment it was like talking to steel doors with 8 seals, hidden in any forest in the whole world.

For this epiosde, i will say sorry to you Maratek, i said alot of things i wasn't ment to say, but i did it anyway, and i highly regret it, but you can not change the past, and i hope you did not get offended in anyway, even though i called you alot of stuff back then.

But to change subject, i would like to explain why i am writing all this, because this is not only a Introduction, this is also a departure.

As some of you might remember, i wrote a long text about how down i was, and this was because my girlfriend dumped me, and i can only say that it was my fault, i got addicted to the game, addicted to the community, addicted to the server, that i did put her into the second lane, i would rather play ARMA 3, than watch a movie with her, but i could not see it was wrong back then, i was blind, i am still down over this, and that is why i think i have to put myself away from the computer, to get a life, where i am not sitting behind a screen all the time, screaming, yelling, and swearing, since she left me, i have not even laughed, as said this was totally my own fault and i do admit it.

I am going to the army the 4th August this year aswell, so i decided it must be now i take my departures for the ALUK. and when this is said, i would like to thank alot of persons, who will be listed below.

Voltz - i remember the good old day, Hydro as we called you (yes his name was hydrovoltz) you have always been good at rp'ing and keeping your head calm in all kind of situation, you are the kind of person people should look up to, you have alot of fantastic ideas, maybe just sometimes too advanced, but it is better than nothing.

Jamie/PLF Samurai - I was always laughing and crying inside myself when i was patrolling with you back in Kavala, and i must admit that i do miss you back in the police, you chose to become rebel, i did that aswell back then, thank you for everything you have learnt me when i was with you, it will never be forgotten.

Wilco - as mentioned you helped me when i had a hard time, since my family is my weak spot, and my sister the most, i can not thank you enough, and i would also like to come and say thank you personally because a text just aint enough

Ciaran - i have not really been speaking to you, but you are here aswell for the big improvements you are doing for the server, you are doing excellent, and even though you are young you have a huge future infront of you, how i know this is because i have a specialization in what we call RAT's (Remote Administration Tools) used for hacking people for all thier personel information, and this was self learned, before i even learned this, i did try out coding, but it was too difficult, coding can be used to alot, and i must admit, it seems like you got the grip on it. I take my hat off for you.

Maratek - You've done alot of shit, but who hasnt? we all have, you have always represented the police, and in my eyes you are the only commander the police can be trusted to. keep on the good job, the police are improving alot.

Tickle - As said you always made my day, and agian i am so sorry for my reactions. you are a unique officer, and i am sorry not to see you climb the ladder.

Zin - you have always taken good care of me, it did not matter if i was known as fabrizio, or bill, i am amazed that you could do such a huge impact, i remember a night where we went to the NPAS HQ and i had some PCSO's going with me and i had to leave, so i told them just observe that man, and do like him, that is the reason he is where he is now. and as i have heard from the they did enjoy every single minute.

PLF, TI and GC - Thank you for all the episodes we had, i have had a good time with you, and bad times with you at other times, i do not regret anything of what happened, i have found all this internt war exciting, fun, and i will not forget thoose memories.

So as you might see this is much more than an introduction of who i am, i have been a part of this community for almost 8-9 months, but as said, i am afraid i will not continue anymore, i have to deal with what is most important, myself.

I wish that you all will take care of eachother, and i do hope, that everybody will do as a wise man once said #RPeverything, it does not only make it fun for you, but for everyone else. I will maybe step by one time in the future, and i will bring my old name back, if i ever return.

I am sorry for this unexpected post, but this has been bothering me for alot of time, and yesterday it all escalated for me, therefore, i mean that i am not suitable for the server or my surrounding any more.

Thank you everyone.

- Bill Wisconsin

- Fabrizio Rizzo Rodrigues Hernandez

- Slacky

- LT. Foxtail

------------EDIT--------
After a talk with fuel, i have decided to give it a chance more, this being said i am taking a break on one week and then see how it turns out, meanwhile i am in therapy aswell for my anger problem.
---------EDIT-----------
After a little break, i have now decided to stay.

 

[lionel]

That's one hell of a story.

Life is about balance, you make mistakes to learn how to avoid them in future.

P.s. The guy who got your name probably just Googled for your profile I'd found a email address and then found you on a social media site. It's quite easy to figure it all out alot of the time.

 

[DainMK]

Good job chap, stay proactive! Never good to see a community member leave, but real life must take precedence over Altis Life. 

Dain

P.S - Lionel, are the Armaholics Anonymous sessions still being funded by the NHS?

 

[lionel]

Heh heh, sure we can find funding. In extreme cases where we can argue that the quality of life would be improved to a point where the resources are balanced I'm sure the panel would be more than happy to consider his case, or he is more than welcome to fund it privately at athira hospital